Just stopped by...I honestly don't know when I'm going to be back. I still can't figure out how to make it so my artwork doesn't look TERRIBLE with my crappy scanner. *tear* My PC has a virus and often kicks me off the internet and freezes which is quite frustrating. And still my stepdad gets all pissy when I'm on. -_-

You all probably hate me by now. Even if you don't...I don't trust ppl very much and because of how stupid I am I have that side that always bombards me with "Nobody likes you. They all HATE you. You have no talent and you'll never make something of yourself" thing. *laughs* I keep saying I'll come back to put new stuff up. But I seem to never do that. I'm working and thinking hard to change my style further and what not so ppl will stop making fun of me and being mean. I think I shall not so shiny crud in my art. Yes, I splatter paint on my artwork. That's NOT shiny stuff. Just something I like to do. Blame stars....I like stars...and I like to splat ink and colors on my stuff. I've been looking at really OLD art both realistic and cartoon. I actually made more realistic artwork when I was younger. I think cartooning is WAY more difficult. *laughs...uncomfortabley*

I've not felt too happy. Of course. I've been experiencing terrible panic attacks and have been quite null and void inside, becoming rather apathetic and emotionless in person often staring off into space or breaking out into a conversation with myself when around ppl forgetting they're there.

Throughout my life of this emptiness and solitude, I've become increasingly efficient in causing my own misery. AHA. I'm not a very happy person..please dun be mad at me. I will come back with stuff. I will....I know many are waiting on pictures. And some possibly have forgotten...but eh, that happens a lot with the likes of me. Being forgotten....

But I'll come back. I'm just sidetracked...don't be mad.